Okay, so I know a few days ago I posted about this dream that I have been having. It isn’t an amazingly unique dream I don’t think but it is something that has been burning in my heart!
I really long to have more freedom to center our lives on each other. I want to travel and surround our lives in the best parts of living. I guess I don’t really have a tangible dream but I have a dream of what I want our lives to feel like. I want to be each other’s world, experience new things, be a unbreakable unit. Some ways I would love to do this are through travel, but not just flying to beautiful places, I want to have a small RV or camper and find hidden lakes and hike gorgeous mountains.
another big part of this though is our daily life. I don’t want to be full time traveling so I want our daily lives to reflect this less is more, unified feeling. I day dream about living in a small simple house on 5+ acres so my kids can roam free. I want to be stuck with each other. I want the kids to be best friends and embrace as much nature as I can. I want exploration to run through our veins. When I am 90 years old I want to be so full of precious memories that I know without a doubt nothing was left on the table.
To me there are few things that are truly precious in this life so I want to make sure that my life is filled to the brim with those things.
So what do I do about this dream of mine?
Honestly I don’t really know. Right now David has a really great job with people he enjoys being around. They have been so good to our family it is hard to think about actually moving on past that job. I am going to start small. I think naturally we start collecting things that we don’t need. There seems to be more toys in the house than what should ever actually be played with, clothing coming out of my ears, and spending money on stuff that is not lasting or fulfilling. Another big thing that will help get us in the right direction is watching our spending on going out to eat and other activities we do as a family. I think if we start really weighing the long term joy that things will bring us we will not only spend less but the things we spend money on will add to our life instead of detract from the end game.
We don’t have the ability to go out and buy an RV right now but we can take small weekend trips as often as possible. Something I am so bad about is not preparing. All week long I know I want to do something big on the weekend but I don’t get myself organized, then come Saturday morning my husband and I are left scratching our heads or completely rushing to get things together. We have all been there right?!
To be quite honest this is a big motivator in Homeschooling. This year was crazy with Jane in school. I knew life would change once kids went into school but I didn’t know just now consuming those changes would be. We would hurry to get her out the door in the morning then by the time she got home she was so cranky we were left with one emotional explosion after another. Every day she would come home telling me that just just wanted to be with our family. I am sure all of us parents get that to at least some extent with our kids but it was different with her, anyways, I guess some of those details should be saved for another day. I pray that with homeschooling we will not only be able to build up our family harmony again but we will have time to do stuff that is truly fulfilling.
It is kind of hard to put my dreams into words because so much of my dreams are about the feeling I want our lives to have. I guess I just really want to take back the reins to our life. Do you ever feel like you have just been going along down this path that everyone tells you is right, but in he back of your mind there is a nagging telling you that there is more out there, a more fulfilling path? There is so much good in this world, I feel like it is up to us to find our passions and goal for our family then do whatever we can to work towards that goal.
Alaska living with my love and 4 littles